It's 92 degrees outside. Earlier the heat index was 98. Now, it's "cooled off" and only feels like 93. Gross. I can't wait to go back to Nebraska, where I thought summer was bad. Turns out it wasn't.
I'm having one of those days where I feel disconnected from home- even though I've talked with my mom at least once a day (more like 2 or 3) since Wednesday. I feel like I don't know what's going on. Ok. So I really do know generally what's going on, but I just feel disconnected and way too far away.
I've missed 4 bridal showers. 3 for girls whose weddings i'm in. one of which happened to be yesterday.
I just got off the phone with my bff from high school who is getting married June 26. I'm her MOH. I haven't done squat to help her- I warned her when she asked me, but I still feel bad. It's really hard not being there to help her with things that a MOH should? She is a "take care of things herself" kind of girl, but still-- I'm planning (or at least attempting) to plan a bachelorette party. Let's be honest. I hate drawing attention to myself and my group. I also hate making decisions that affect a whole group. I also hate disappointing people- I'd hate to throw my best friend a horribly lame party. I don't know the other BM very well- or frankly, at all.
As much as I hate those things,thinking about it is more fun than studying pharmacology.
in two weeks, i'll in the middle of my northward trek back home.
on a happier note: i kicked my pathology test's hiney on wednesday. hopefully it wasn't a fluke and i can do it again on the final path test next week and the upcoming 2 pharmacology tests... I suppose I should go study now.
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