My hand at blogging the journey through optometry school- the ups, downs, and in-betweens.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

hugs.

I miss hugs. lots. It's not like at home yet. I don't know people well enough, well, I do, but we see each other all day, every day and hugs don't seem to be as appropriate then, I guess? I don't know. I miss hugs from Tia and Kevin. They are my favorite huggers. No offense to the rest, but they just are my favorites.

Kaila and I were planning on going to early mass to give us some extra time to study today. She overslept, so I went by myself. Deacon Eddie at St. Peter's walked in just ahdead of me this morning. He held the door open for me and winked a little. Had someone under the age of 60 done it, it probably would have been a little creepy, but it definitely wasn't. After mass, I stayed a little longer to finish my rosary. I had started to feel a little emotional but was fighting through it, but thinking, "I could really use a hug to encourage me, make me less homesick and motivate me to study my hiney off for this test tomorrow."  Anyway, as I was walking out, Deacon Eddie, who was coming back in says to me, "Ya knowa, I hehve speh-cial priv-lig-es as a DEAcon. . . I geht to geeve huhgs."  I smiled and said, "It's just what I need!" And he gave me a big bear hug.

It helped me feel good, but also sad...?... I know, it doesn't really make sense, but really do girl's emotions EVER make sense?

4 comments:

  1. It makes sense to me. Even though I couldn't explain it, either.

    All this coming from the anti-hugger, even. This summer all I wanted was someone I loved to appear and give me a hug. A hug means you're there with someone, even if that's all you can offer. I do have to say, though, (T and I had this conversation Friday) that you have great hugs, and I would immediately choose your hug over a "not hug."

    Wishing you lots of hugs today.

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  2. Agreed. With you and Em both. I remember calling my parents a month ago and saying how much I miss hugs. This from someone who has the strangest personal space issues of anyone I know. But there's something profoundly comforting about knowing that there is someone who has so much love or compassion to share with you that words alone just won't do it.

    I miss your hugs, too. Wish I - or anyone you loved - could be there to give you one. But for now, here's a hug and a prayer from me.

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  3. Heres a long distant hug until Thanksgiving :) I agree with you thou and I am having the opposite with Matt so far away and not being able to just sit and talk. The heart always aches in different ways but with faith in God I can get over it.

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  4. Just look at our family picture and imagine hugs from your dad and I. I can't wait until you can come home so we can give you real hugs. We miss you but know this is where you need to be to obtain your life-long dream. Love, kisses and hugs from your family.

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